I'm a resolutions kind of girl. It really motivates me to be a better person throughout the year, not just in July and February. I had a really tough time coming up with a solid resolution this year. What DO I want? I mean, really. And then I started thinking about where I am in my life right now. I have a career that I love, married to the man of my dreams, we are continually working through the toughness of what is life, and then we have a big ol' future in front of us when it comes to raising a family. (No, this is not an announcement. We aren't even trying yet!) BUT, I am mindful that our time "alone" is short-lived. Motherhood is just around the corner, which means that "me-time" is just about to end, too.haha I don't mean that to sound morbid, but I'm trying to be honest with myself and where I am in my life. I know that there are big, huge, wonderful changes when you're a mom. And from what all my friends say (because trust me, it feels like everyone I know has kids now), their me-time is limited once they start raising children.
So, back to resolutions, I promise there's a conclusion with all those jumbled thoughts. This year, I want to focus on me. Not in a selfish, I'm-the-only-one-that-matters way, or in a depressed the-last-good-year-of-my-life way, either. Trust me when I say that. I also don't want to dismiss my marriage either, of COURSE I want to work on "us" and not just "me." But sometimes, I think you need to spend a little "me-time" to re-find yourself. And for me, this year, that means re-finding what makes me happy. I obviously know lots of things that make me happy, but I want to find MORE of what brings that true-happiness.
So this year, I'm going to purge myself of things that don't bring true happiness, and focus my energy on positive things. Which means I'll have to say "no" to some things that I really enjoy, but don't benefit me any (like maple donuts, wasted TV time, some design projects, etc.). And then exchange the items I get rid of with meaningful, healthy, positive replacements. So here it is, these are my resolutions:
This year I will create the healthiest me I can create, which has to do with what I put into my body physically, spiritually and mentally. As well as what actions I do with my body, such as exercise, enough sleep at night, meditation, yoga, stretching, walking, loving, and serving. I will feed my mind with books, art museums, and beautiful scenery. Which means I will need to do some light traveling, photography and hiking. I will create more meaningful relationships with those that I love (absolutely including my spouse and family members). And I will spend time with my hands creating beautiful things that make me happy, like flower arrangements, fresh bread, or hand-written designs. I will treat myself kindly by only allowing loving, positive thoughts about myself. And I will let go of what is out of my control.
Phew! I guess, when you're trying to make a better "you," it's hard to make a cut-and-dry list. This year I need more flexibility, I need full sentences of suggested ideas to create a better me. Loose resolutions that I can allow to morph as time goes on and I figure out what brings me true happiness.